@castonia Thanks so much! I'm gonna have to take a little break from only doing studies as I was about to have a mental breakdown from stress, but I'm glad to know that there is visible improvement. I'll get back to them before too long.
So I almost walked away from things today. I was so stressed out, I felt like a complete failure, I didn't even know if I wanted to be an artist. But I convinced myself that the main source of my stress was the fact that I had been focusing all my energy on studies and had no time to do any more creative/personal work. So I decided that for a while I'm going to step away from the studies and just focus on drawing for myself.
I literally had to force myself to sit down and draw after making that decision because, though I believed it academically, I didn't believe it in my soul. I'm so glad I did. Within minutes of just sitting down to draw for myself I could feel my stress levels dropping. They dropped so rapidly and to such a degree that afterward I found myself thinking "Maybe I'll do some studies tomorrow."
While I feel like that's a good indicator of an improvement in my mental state, I'm not just going to assume that it's all good. So I'm going to take a at least the rest of this week, maybe longer, and just draw for me. Then I'll reevaluate getting back to doing regular studies.
And who knows, a study or two may creep in this week. The difference would be that it's a study that I'm doing because I'm faced with a specific problem/question that I want to explore, not because I feel like I have to do studies every day.
So for today I just continued my super loose free-form zero plan sketching. Just started throwing down lines and seeing what happens.
I feel like this is good for me for a number of reasons. Number one, and most interesting to me, it gets me experimenting with shapes that I may not have come across any other way. So far both yesterday and today I've found myself, in at least one notable instance, drawing things in a way that I probably wouldn't have if I had taken a more structured approach.
The second is that, in conjunction with this blog, it really forces me to get over showing things that are polished or "complete" in anyway. These drawings are little more than scribbles. There are certainly a lot of ways in which they could be improved. But that's not the point. The point is to draw and draw whatever. If I find an idea Iike then I can take it and refine it and make it more "complete."
This is piece I've been working on for, well, a lot longer than I would like to say. This is actually version 3 and will be the final redo of this character. Today I just took some time to block out the pose a bit and started sketching in a few of the larger details.
This is a part of a "Draw it Again" meme that I've been wanting to do. I'll keep the original held back for now so when it's finished we can have a more significant comparison.
Well, I can say that I feel so much better today. Still a little stressed, but nowhere near where I was. We'll see what the next few days bring as I focus on just drawing for me. Who knows what interesting things I'll discover.
More to come.