I been thinking a lot lately and have been feeling like I'm forgetting things when I'm trying to draw OR I'm trying things that are too difficult. I'm watching all these art videos, Ross Draws, Sam Does Art, and so many more and they make such beautiful art and I'm getting frustrated because that is where I want to be and I have such a long way to go.
But I just want to draw and paint great things.
I keep doing these "Gesture drawings and they are just sketches but they look bad to me. When I look at them it makes me feel like I'm terrible and not improving. I have all of these videos to tell me HOW to do things, but not if IM doing them wrong.
I've just been going through frustration after frustration because I keep trying things I want to do and I just can't do them yet and it's bringing me down.
I've lost track of my schedule and what I should be doing and concentrating on. I just went back to doing exercises because I really don't know what else to do lol.
I never really did the 1 minute Gesture drawing because I just hate how they look. It just doesn't feel right when drawing them. They just look bad to me.
Started doing action lines and construction because I just feel like I'm forgetting how things should be and I have so much trouble with the torso and hips and getting them to look like they are facing the correct way on a 2D surface.
The thing that makes this so hard is I have no one telling me if I'm making mistakes with it and how to correct it. So I just keep making those same mistakes over and over with no correction.
Just did more cylinders too. I guess everything is practice. It just becomes not fun when I just want to draw and then I remember I need to do my exercises for 5 hours+ all these things literally take me all day to do.
Don't know what I should do here, maybe all this work is burning me out. I'm literally doing it all day long, trying to get better. Then I noticed I'm not getting better I'm getting worse.
