Jeez time really flies by so fast... I wanna start posting my art online again. I tried posting on instagram again but it felt to restrictive so I'm back here again. I hope I can stick to posting somewhere for a bit longer before disappearing. To be honest I still want to try to be able to do art as a job but I feel like most of the time I'm still treating it like a hobby which I only do things I'm comfortable doing. 
It's a struggle and I'm trying to overcome that by doing more finished pieces which i do more now but I still find it a struggle AA. It's like the art fundamentals just feel like it keeps slipping and I feel like I have to constantly brush it up but at the same time I need to work on making stuff.
I think I just have to let go on my insecurity of deproving and trust I can do things more. I'm working on a project inspired by Feng Zhu's junior concept art video. I think I'm still finding an idea to work on and then draw some concepts for it. So far I'm pretty happy with what I drew and just need to continue adding to the concept eh
I'm going to use it to practice coming up with stuff I don't usually draw like props and environments hopefully things will go well.
At the same time, I'm working on my painting skills. I tend to switch my practice up often but Idk if it's useful or not but at the same time I can't help it. I feel like practicing something consistently will work better but sigh.
Well I just gotta keep going. The only thing I need to make sure is that I don't just keep practicing so I'm trying to keep the 50/50 rule of practicing and making stuff.
So far this is the concept of the characters I want in the world. I think I should try something that's pretty anything goes lol so I went with fantasy. I still don't know what I am doing and I'm winging it half of the time but at least I'm trying to make stuff. 
How do people deal with the looming feeling that they don't what they are doing but still do it anyway. Well okay gotta keep going still I cri.
