Thank you very much @daceronine, @mitsuki-youko and @gregorya!
I don't know what is up with me this week but I have so much hatred towards myself right now. I can't focus for a longer time, I can't start a painting. I hate all of my works, my style, everything. Again my expectations go too high... it is what it is.
I have all these bad thoughts but still do a lot of work. Lots of studies, lots of writing, designing. Like what I am even complaining about?!
Anatomy studies because something broke in my brain when I tried to clean up some thumbnails.


Mermay thumbnails that I can't clean up. I have more but these are my favourite. I like the bottom right but I don't know what to do with arms. He looks at the boat and is happy to see person in it. I thought about making another where you look at the guy in boat from top

Haven't painted traditionally in a long while and I used gouache only once but I like it. Colors got more saturated on photo. Blue isn't so intense. Values are pretty messed up and it all blends together. But I don't know if I want to fix it I might ruin it and it isn't that bad. I was afraid it will look worse than my last trad painting from last year but it does not. There was one moment when I decided to change whole color scheme mid painting so I glazed it with bright orange and instantly regreted it. I can't even mix such colors why would i do that where undo button

And Narfi portrait.... I don't like it. Overall it feels nice but I just don't like it. I struggled a lot and something is off about it. I can see that something is wrong with the face but I can't tell what. Maybe seeing her in such a light mood feels different. And it was supposed to be 'fun painting to chill'...

Enough of my bad mood. Next week will be better! Have a great day and weekend!