Gesture drawing broke me once more. After around a week, I still feel nothing when doing gesture drawing. I kinda know what I have to look for, but I can't even find a thread of that. I want to "feel the flow". I want to understand the gesture first through my eye, then through my hand (or body). And today, I am stuck between the head and the hand. People will say it takes practice, and I agree. But for now, I still don't feel it in my hand, nor my arm. And this emptiness is hard to fight.
I am looking for a method that could help me gasp a fraction of that movement. One way of making gesture drawing that would click with me. Then it would only be a question of time, practice and experiences. Sadly today, I feel like I have been gesture drawing "for nothing". I don't feel that, up until that point in time, I have made, or felt, no progress. That stillness scares me. I hope it will go away.
After a challenging mental day, I think I ll do 2min gesture drawing from now on. In 2min I think I can get close to the feeling I am looking for. I have time to feel the reference instead of just jumping into action. I will also allow myself to extend my 2min if I feel like it was not enough. I hope it will build a healthier relation with this exercise.
