I feel you
Sometimes we bite more than we can chew and one thing that can happen is we fall into a trap of avoidance because we dread the excessive work
I am sure there are a million approaches and I am by no means an expert but I did feel this with the room assignment - I would feel dread thinking about it and guilt from avoiding it. Really weird.
I recommend to circumvent it to not compromise. It’s open school here, no grades no worries you just have to go at your own pace. Given that, you can just do these for yourself and make sketchy works, easier to do more of them and less worries or you can slowly add more to one piece over time and focus the rest of your energy on other things/assignments etc
Getting small things done give that feeling of satisfaction and motivation that you need for the bigger things. That’s why gesture and small doodles also really help me. If I am not sure I can go through it, I tell myself to at least do a couple doodles or gestures and suddenly you get in the zone. Works for me anyways
Hopefully my incoherent ramblings are helpful in your journey 😅
Cheers!
